| suicide by disaster |
[Apr. 12th, 2005|03:03 am] |
start a trend and do what everyone else says on my buddy list... "Who the hell is this im clearing my buddy list so i need to know" coincidence four people do it all in one day? who fuckin knows man, some crazy ass shit though i think in my opinion.
Put the gun into my mouth and watch me die,
a perfect suicide.
What makes you come to end this world,
we'll never know.
Now were trying to end it all,
while my fingers on the trigger.
You never understand where im from,
or just how to have a perfect kill.
The best thing to do is never love in this world,
a broken heart is unspoken.
To keep this in mind just makes me go on,
calissed on everything.
Distance from a far that grows,
my mind just goes bizarre.
Just try to stop complaining,
but you grow deeper in my heart.
Now watch these suicide plans grow,
cuz i'll do what i have to.
Make it through another day,
tomorrow will probably be my day.
Wake up and watch you disappear,
out of my heart and out of my soul. |
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| got a joke for you all....... |
[Sep. 18th, 2004|10:43 pm] |
So what does a man with a 13 inch penis eat for lunch?
This morning I had orange juice, cereal, and a crumb donught from one of those donught packs.
My knee itches, I couldnt stop laughing with Riley today it was a ball of a time. Got some fire, man its bomb, David tell people I got the shit they want, fuckin right dawgy fuckin right she sucked on my nipples like a fuckin cow |
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| Unreasonable Pain from Below? |
[Sep. 3rd, 2004|12:19 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Matchbook Romance | ] |
It has come to my attention my dear friend Bryan what has been going on these last few months. I was i was as cool as you. David I wish I had your ego. I hate you both for this. Actually I dont cause I got bigger balls then both of you hahaha suckers!!!! HAHAHA VEGAS IS HOT YEAH! I quit LS, even better! Well cya when I get back dudes lol suckers! |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 24th, 2004|08:03 pm] |
It comes and goes just like you,
These memories of what could be.
I smoke these ciggarettes and watch them burn,
Sometimes I wish it was your turn.
Light them up and smoke them out,
Now it's time to turn the lights out.
Up in smoke and now back down,
Take your face and beat it in the ground.
You were my boy but turned your back,
Now it's time to face the facts.
On the porch while your in the room,
I heard you screw her and then say,
"hey its your turn"
She was still tight,
Damn your sad.
It was crazy and I was mad,
You prolly work it just like your dad.
Can't keep a girl cause your dick,
I thought they were all just little tricks,
You talked like you were a man,
Until the day I found out you were just sad.
You were mad cause I took your girl,
Not my fault you made her hurl.
I rocked the boat,
MAde her moan,
you would never be able to get her alone.
You would fall in and probably drown,
I made that shit bigger then the sound.
I know you cried when you fell in,
But its ok, isnt that what you tell your little friend?
Pet that shit and hope it gets bigger,
MAn you cant even take a picture.
Girls would laugh,
And guys would cry,
What a disgrace you cant even hit it from behind. |
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| ohhh yeah a journal entry hahaha |
[Aug. 24th, 2004|07:42 pm] |
this is the time to say good bye,
Pack your shit and dont look behind.
Your plane leaves tonight,
A kamikazii flight.
Your shaking hands dont know what to do,
But your heart tells you just let go.
Watch you slip away,
Pull me down and runaway.
Now your gone and thats a fact,
Didn't even see you pack.
See these tags around my neck,
That should tell you one known fact.
My life is gone and not yours anymore,
I gave you the finger and took in the lord.
That peice of shit will watch me die,
Take me to heaven while I watch people cry.
Watch you slip away,
Pull me down and runaway.
Now your gone and thats a fact,
Didn't even see you pack.
I took your shit and threw it away,
Watched it burn as you ran away.
take your ass and move away,
I'll do it too but wont look away.
Flip you off and grab my dick,
You were just a silly trick.
Watch you slip away,
Pull me down and runaway,
Pull me down and runaway,
Pull me down and turned away. |
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| my head hurts |
[Jul. 7th, 2004|11:14 pm] |
i hate my job, work sucks ass i really wnna quit, i alwmost quit on the spot today i got so pissed. i miss hangin with brittany and shit, uhhh this sucks. brittany i miss seeing you smile and making me laugh! I HEART YOU! well im off to bed, excited about talking to you tomorrow sheesh im a lamo.
night all
Wheeler |
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| long day ahead of me |
[Jul. 3rd, 2004|01:06 pm] |
As the day goes on we get closer to leaving for Chelan, this is what ive been waiting for all week, its pathetic lol I am so worn out it sucks big donkey balls but it's all good.
I ask myself these questions,
I wonder how it feels to be.
Be alone in darkening days,
When the world falls apart.
Crashing down on your shoulders,
Darkening your whole sky.
When and where will everyone be,
When you lost your only friend?
Curses of reality blind me,
Striking your face upon my thoughts.
Slit my wrist and watch it bleed,
Here I have no misery.
Spinning rooms like circus rides,
Coughs that burn but nothing come out.
Drink myself into eternity,
This is where I like to be. |
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| What to do, what to do |
[Jul. 1st, 2004|12:59 am] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | She thinks my tractors sexy - Kenny Chesney | ] |
Went to beach with everyone, well not everyone Bryan and Davey wasn't there. My head fuckin hurts, talked to a few people and just chilled. My manager was asking me how I've been last few days and I told him what's up, we talked for like 30 minutes, was nice to just vent a little, most people think he's mean and shit but I think he's cool, we get a long well and shit, it's awesome!
I feel disconnected from my friends a little, like in my own little world, good and bad thing you know? Probably hang out with Graves on Friday and have like a "vent" day...need to just kinda let things out that have been bothering me. Chelan this weekend im fuckin stoked for, gosh I can't fucking wait. I get my truck fixed, pay two car insurances, lower my Geo, paint the Geo, get an apartment, get 22's for the truck, and just kinda chill.
They think "I can make it far in the company" when im on a streak, i guess im on a streak, but geezus wtf do I got to do to prove im worth every penny... show my 140% all day except up to lunch I guess hah
Heather and I might hook up, that would be kinda nice, just like that... just like that haha Was gonna hit it and quit it but she's tight, litterally haha
Ever realize once you graduate that you make new friends and hang out with them and part of the reason is because you kinda feel that you need a change? That's how I kinda feel, talked to Vu about it and he agreed. The reason why is because you do the same old shit with your old friends, and the new ones kinda help you become what you want but you keep your old oens cause they mean a lot to you. It's understandable I know where it all comes from.
The people I use to talk to and the people I talk to and hang out with now are all the same. People just kinda know who you are and if you match then your cool, if not then you kinda go diffrent ways. Living 30-45 minutes from a bestfriend is hard, I hate it bro, it licks dick. |
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| haha funny shit |
[Jun. 28th, 2004|01:17 pm] |
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| | good | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Caress me Down - Sublime | ] |
the events for past week lol god there funny
1) wendsday - Saw whitney at beach and she talked shit about me to Heather, never knew I was a bad boyfriend hmm... yea right
2) Friday - got alcohol for Chelan
3) Saturday - had to buy more alcohol for Chelan cause I drank it all Friday lol then left for Chelan 2 hour later lol got mass drunk and couldnt walk but had to help T-stran and we were both drunk off our asses
4) Sunday - hung out with Heather, got interupted and ruined the moment... headed back from Chelan that was a blast, and got sunburnt.
5) Monday - Working and still working prolly go to beach and hang with Graves for the day.
6) Tuesday - Probably go over and see bryan cause I havent seen him in almost a week!
The count and number is gettin up there about to stop and just say I dunno, to many to count! Beat CK and still no diseases, THANK YOU TROJAN MAN!!!! so out of highschool the whole 48 months, ive been single for 8 months of it the last 8 months have been fucking heaven! |
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| dedication |
[Jun. 23rd, 2004|08:28 pm] |
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| | Bury the Tooth of the Hydra and a Skeleton Army Will Arise | ] |
This song was dedicated To Erin and I and Melinda s well from one of my buddies. I listened to it with him and it made complete sense because it is a true fuckin song!!!! Right on Dude thank you.
There’s something eating me from inside out
Guess it doesn’t matter what I say
I cough up blood and words that I regret
So long your attention has gone away
These high school words have lost their power
Their meaning bleeds right through this page
I state my case and you impale yourself
On points to you I wish I’d made
Let’s just pretend this never happened and then we’ll be on our way.
Even with these scars I can’t remember Why we started anyway.
Your blood it stains me like a trophy
When I wear it I’m ashamed
Of what I was or what I am
or every thing I could have been
You want some proof? Crack open my skull.
Safe place where evil thoughts reside
These underhanded gestures I make
Do they help you sleep at night?
good ass song I thought, and makes me realize and think maybe it should be over and we should stop talking. Hmm I dont think the decision is really up to anyone but me now. what to do what to do. |
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| hmmm |
[Jun. 23rd, 2004|11:04 am] |
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| | Taking Back Sunday - Cute with out the "e" | ] |
Katie and I broke up, kinda sad but go figure. Was fun hangin with Bryan and Kendra last night, but getting kicked out dude that was fucked man... how long we've known each other and shit and I have to drive hom at 1:50 at night, senseless if you ask me.
So I think about the past and I think about the future. I love all my friends but you can truley see who will be there for you. You know where your life will go depending on the people your with. Who dreams big who dreams small, who does what with there life. Maybe these are the people who help us become what we want.
Maybe soon I will be able to be what I want then, or am I just dreaming for something that can never happen? guess it just depends on what we really want. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 21st, 2004|12:26 am] |
got my guitars, electric and acoustic, yah thats my night, nothing more to say
i heart you brittany when we gonna go on a date? |
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| I will call her Ms.New york New York |
[Jun. 16th, 2004|12:50 am] |
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| | 3 Doors Down | ] |
Yea so "Ms. New York New York" started by staring at me... So I decided to talk to her and her friend that I will call "Ms. Corona" The Reason I name these names is because I met these ladies in NY NY and they both had on matching Corona outfits.
So I decided to talk to them and hit on them and have a killer time. Well we talked and we went on our merry little way back to the bedroom and got drunk. I got bruises and scratches, my wrist hurt, and im exhausted.
Thank you Vegas/ "ms. Corona and Ms. New York New york" for an awesome time... we shall mingle again... hopefully you call me before I leave Vegas haha
"GET IT HIT IT QUIT IT" |
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| HOO TRAIN! |
[Jun. 15th, 2004|05:55 pm] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Thursday - | ] |
So if you get paid for sex your a whore...if you dont and you just have sex your a slut... they keep change it on me haha Davey and Bryan this is the shit this summer we live it up. As some people can see I don't put girlfriebnds infront of my friends anymore so it's all godo guys. Maybe that's why I can't keep them for that long anymore haha Well I'm out gonna go swimmin, later dudes
gonna call you later Davey, Bryan and I will chill with you this summer, MONROE BITCHS FUCKIN SUCK!!! |
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| Here we go |
[Jun. 13th, 2004|08:51 am] |
So now im heading to Vegas with everyone.... On the road we go...
Goodluck everyone and hope you all have a good week cause im going to!
My head is pounding like it started to at midnight but its all good guys, have fun and cya in a week...
Hope I get my tattoo and Blazer your so sexy! MMM BABY!!! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 12th, 2004|12:09 pm] |
so now its all over, were graduating tonight and im ready... MY HAIR IS BLUE! Im taking Blue with me to my moms woot woot! So now im about to leave and finish babysitting and im so fricken ready for tonight!
Erin things are what you make of it, it just depends on what direction your going that it seems to make or break it, I feel as if we are only friends... trying to make it something more was the stupidest thing I could of ever wanted, sorry bout it all.
tina you will get payed back, wait and see!
Bryan thank you for always being there man, summer will be a blast.
Katie thanks for keeping me company and not taking advantage of me when I get drunk, I know it sucks helping me up when I fall down a lot espically down the stairs "IM OK I THINK I BROKE MY LEG, NOPE MY ASS IS BURNT!" lol
Brittany one day my fav outfit right? I hope so lol |
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| another song just for you! |
[Jun. 10th, 2004|08:45 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  Stoked | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | justins and i song woot woot | ] |
You kissed me with your lips,
I wished it was on my dick.
Ate you out and heard you moan,
While I was talking on the phone.
To these hot chicks in Kansas City,
How I like those big old titties.
Plump and round and fuckin juicy,
God I miss those fuckin couchies.
Ive grown alot over the years,
Now I have a lot of fears.
Your boyfriend walked in the room,
And my dick was still in your poon.
But it's ok,
Cuz he's gay,
He now likes dick,
That's fuckin sick.
But it's his choice,
HE's fuckin queer,
Now that's the end,
He now takes it in the rear.
Met this chick in Dalas,
She lived in a fuckin palace.
Horny as a Dog in heat,
So I let her beat my meat.
SHe fuckin ripped my skin,
That was a total fuckin sin.
I payed her back later that night,
Her ass was so fuckin tight.
Her boyfriend walked into the room,
Now her ass looks like a dune.
But it's ok,
Cuz he's gay,
He now likes dick,
That's fuckin sick.
But it's his choice,
HE's fuckin queer,
Now that's the end,
He now takes it in the rear. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 9th, 2004|11:19 am] |
| straightemopunk's LJ stalker is erin_marie8504! | | erin_marie8504 is stalking you because you made a nasty comment on their LJ. They are also stalking the rest of your friends list! |
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